I'm sorry, i love you.

Horrible day,moodswings, eff.
I don't know how to describe my feelings today
Totally screwd up.
Was chatting with vizhe and see who can cry first.
yes, my whole eyes went damn red and teary /:
I know i'm not suppose to be loving you,
but i really don't know what to do
i can't seem to let go.
i wanna cry.i wanna die.
really.
im such a useless,so why bother living in this world?
how i wish,
someone would just shoot me to death,now.
maybe it's really the time i should end it all...

I'm suffering both physically and emotionally.
anyone understands?